Nightmares and Hope

No doubts that I'm havin' nightmares lately,
cannot sleep well.
When I woke and my whole body just sweat like i bath.
I just remember those nightmare,
So scary,
So cruel.
I hope that I'm stupid,
so that, i won't think that much =D
which will end up fighting if i did a wrong guessing.
But what i care is just her,
Other person, I just won't bother.
What she says, or do I'm really care about it.
Her words can be both Devils and Angels.
I hope that Nightmares don't really happens in Real.
It's like hell.
I hope that The year we are together is now 2008,
Instead, i want it 2011.
Not because that we can have sex,
It's because we can meet each other easier,
and Both Moods and Emotion is controllable already.
I hope i had a time machine !
then, i can travel to future and find her,
But it's just dreams.
2011,
We're both 18.
Guess what,
When i wanted to see her,
I can drive and find her~
See her sweet face, sweet smile.
All the time when we're webcamming,
I love to see her smile,
I love to see she look at the camera.
But because of myself i cannot see her smiles..
Haha, She got my temper i think.
If yes,
Then, I'll try my best not to make her temper got high up.
If no,
I'll also not be mad,
This time,
I just ask,
Be stupid,
Don't imagine unnecessary thing..
Always My thinking just spoil our relationship.
Haha, I Really HOPE i THINK TOO MUCH!
SO,
I can be more dumb next time and ask before hurting her.
Then she'll never COMPLAIN that i dun understand her~
I'll ASK next time if i dun understand.
HAHA,
I'm just pretending to be clever all the time i think?
I thought i understands her,
Yeah, i say i understands her
Thats the sweets i gave myself and her.
which dont really last long.
I Hope that she wont says the words that brings Fatality to me ANYMORE
I Hope i can see her smiles everyday !

I Love You, Bi