說好的幸福呢

妳的回話凌亂著
在這個時刻
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿
甜蜜散落了

情緒莫名的拉扯
我還愛妳呢
而妳斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了

時間過了
走了
愛情面臨選擇
妳冷了
倦了
我哭了
離開時的不快樂
妳用卡片手寫著
有些愛只給到這
真的痛了

怎麼了
妳累了
說好的
幸福呢
我懂了
不說了
愛淡了
夢遠了
開心與不開心一一細數著
妳再不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻
我都還記得

妳不等了
說好的幸福呢
我錯了
淚乾了
放手了
後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢

the Recycle Bin

30th, October of 2008.

Wonderful Day,
What I'm Gonna do =D,
Maybe I've Given Up,
For what she did to me.
=D

I heard from a friend says that,
I'm a Add or Remove Program/ Recycle Bin
Break it and throw inside me,
and the things will disappear~.
Wow, I'm once this =D.
I think the files is too big to disappear for me now,
Haha, It's the first time she didn't reply me or no credit,
Whatever it is,
I cared too much.
Recycle Bin, Hahaha.
I'm back, to a cruel guy.
I'm back, my friend !
Don't lah angry me =_=

ＴＡ ＤＡ！

Hmm,
I feeling okay abit right now,
just don't want her to be sad again.
^.^
I now listening to a song name　你是我的老婆－任贤齐
thats whａｔ i feel,

today morning when im inside the car,
suddenly i heard the radio playing this song,
i listen to every lyrics,
Thats what i want in the future.
ＰＬＥＡＳＥ WHEN YOU SEE THIS,
DONT TAKE THOSE THING ＡＬＲＥＡＤＹ　OKAY?!
reply me in my chatbox lah,
i hope break d u can happy happy,
i don wan together not happy
break also not happy.
STARS won't disappear,
Just the clouds makes u cannot see them!
^.^

She's GONE

She's gone again,
Perhaps,
This time for real.

I won't beg her to mend back already,
Cuz i noe this time she's real serious about it.
I'll let her go,
As she's a good girl.
But, I will keep the memories.

I'll take care of myself,
As she insist,
But, Tears i cannot control I'm sorry about it.

I'll live my life better,
As you're the best for me,
But, the time now is not good, God's very good to me, gave me the best that i ever had

I'll stay healthy, keep out of alcohol
As we can still be back in the future,
But, i fear what you fear, but i still hope you get the best guy to treat u real good. I'm selfish i know.

I'm afraid of alone because I left u alone before.
I want u back all the time is because I know u love me real,
If I'm alone, I guess You are.
But, You're so close to your friend,
So, i think its okay ^.^
I think It's time for me to be left alone,

Live ur life to the max,
Don't care about me.
Take care,
Ur Love.

Nightmares and Hope

No doubts that I'm havin' nightmares lately,
cannot sleep well.
When I woke and my whole body just sweat like i bath.
I just remember those nightmare,
So scary,
So cruel.
I hope that I'm stupid,
so that, i won't think that much =D
which will end up fighting if i did a wrong guessing.
But what i care is just her,
Other person, I just won't bother.
What she says, or do I'm really care about it.
Her words can be both Devils and Angels.
I hope that Nightmares don't really happens in Real.
It's like hell.
I hope that The year we are together is now 2008,
Instead, i want it 2011.
Not because that we can have sex,
It's because we can meet each other easier,
and Both Moods and Emotion is controllable already.
I hope i had a time machine !
then, i can travel to future and find her,
But it's just dreams.
2011,
We're both 18.
Guess what,
When i wanted to see her,
I can drive and find her~
See her sweet face, sweet smile.
All the time when we're webcamming,
I love to see her smile,
I love to see she look at the camera.
But because of myself i cannot see her smiles..
Haha, She got my temper i think.
If yes,
Then, I'll try my best not to make her temper got high up.
If no,
I'll also not be mad,
This time,
I just ask,
Be stupid,
Don't imagine unnecessary thing..
Always My thinking just spoil our relationship.
Haha, I Really HOPE i THINK TOO MUCH!
SO,
I can be more dumb next time and ask before hurting her.
Then she'll never COMPLAIN that i dun understand her~
I'll ASK next time if i dun understand.
HAHA,
I'm just pretending to be clever all the time i think?
I thought i understands her,
Yeah, i say i understands her
Thats the sweets i gave myself and her.
which dont really last long.
I Hope that she wont says the words that brings Fatality to me ANYMORE
I Hope i can see her smiles everyday !

I Love You, Bi

Us.

I love you, bi. =)

the stress strikes back,
Chow.

Mistakes

ReadMe: Those who don't understand, STFU and Understand it.
I've done many mistakes lately.
The truth is..
I know what i should do but i can't do it.
I know she enjoys with her friend more than me sometimes because she don't need to refrain anything.
She can just say anything to them instead of saying to me.
Talking with me, as a girlfriend sometimes stressed her.
This is because I refrain her from doing many things. I don't i shall or shudn't control her that much but i just want her to be better.
I think that I've wanting too much from her sometimes, I always thought that she will know what I'm thinking, and I hate it whenever i talk or chat with her, she's doing something else.
And i conclude that, I don't mean to control, I just don't want her to be those ordinary girl.
She's special to me.
I confessed and admit that I drink last night.
Nobody knows that I'm somehow allergic to alcohol if i drink too much.
And i announce that don't make me drink some other time,
Drinking alcohol too excessively will make me suffer from something that i don't know.
I confessed again that,
Yesterday my temperature had gone high up and this cause me to drink.
I admit that i hate them sometimes because I know its a joke,
But when I'm serious,
I can't take any jokes.
Like,
I'm serious and look at her ,
But,
Her friend like showing and says that," see see see " those kind of face that , that kind of feeling I'm like " What's wrong with you, I don't touch u, Please don't ever touch my temper."if it appears in one of my friends face
I will pawn him,
So,
Her friends rite, Girl and knows nothing about me,
I can't do anything..
But,
They're like this, (quote : not Khoo Yin Zhi, You treat me well that day, if not I've no idea what will i do =) )

I've done mistakes.
I wont repeat again. Just learning to keep my feelings and emotion to stop me from doing things that can harm me and hurt her.
I said that i won't hurt her anymore. I do it again.
Grr, It's getting hard.
I'm Sorry!
=D i will do it better..

i think i need to create another blog that is unknown to do cursing to release =D
what u others say?

Mood : Better ever since she's back.

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 19 questions. Then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. What is it that bothers you the most?
Having bad temper..

2. What is your most favourite thing to do?
Hugging her

3. What kind of news do you read?
Science and technology sometimes.


4. What is your ultimate wish?
Can do things that i love only

5. Is there someone in your heart right now?
Yeah, stuck inside already.

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
How to eat?, become farmer?

7. Are you afraid of pain ?
Physically, not really. Mentally, yes.


8. What do you feel like doing right now?
Be with her. be with her!

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
If she needs those words, i will tell.

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
The person that i love the most.

11.What is your 5 most passionate thing at this moment?
- Looking at her eyes.
- Making her laugh.
- Cheer her up when theres any problem
- Talk to her
- Most important, dont leave her alone.

12.What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad?
She is =D

13. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Potato =D

14. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Can i have a happy family and a best job?...

15. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
More patience, change my stupid temper, make her love me more.

16. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Keke.. Maybe can stil be with her. My dreams =D.

17. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
I'm not an ordinary person.

18. If you can bring only one thing along with you to another world, what would it be?
OMG!, Her lah, 2 people in 1 world! WOOT

20. How much do you love her/him?
She knows =D, when i say " count the stars!"

I am back with my baby.

Day 1

Day 1

I felt that this feeling i had now is i've lost someone without hugging her tightly,
I just let go so easily at that moment. I want her back. This is the first time i felt so in love with someone. i confess,
I shouldn't always be bad temper and it always hurt you and u angry me back. I now understand why do you angry back.
Anyway, when she's not around, i felt really really weird and lonely.

After yesterday, i knew many things. That make me think that I'm the worst person ever in the world. What do you think? Stabbing the same position twice. and sometimes, add some salt without giving treatment. I don't want to let her do that again.
I want to make her happy. I don't want her to find her friend and go do that.
I felt so deeply hurt when i saw she did.

She sacrifices so much and I don't know, makes me even worse. I regret that I never cherish her whenever she's around me, only when she's gone I felt her existence is so much important for me. I admit that i have drop a tears for her. God make me understands the feelings of hurt and i felt it, If God does that, I'm very happy that God is looking me from the heaven sky. That He sees every of my movement that i have hurt her. He helps her to make me feel the same.
Thank God.

Another long day to go, without her care I'm so lost. I wish he will never do that again in her life.. I won't let her feel that pain anymore. I'm still waiting you..

17/10/2008 10:40 PMR's last day.

Time pass fast,
3 years~
Don't know which freak say's time passby slow,
Anyone get my idea?
Life's Brief Candle,
Can your Dle la!
mcb William Shakespeare.
Haha,
Just joking =D

anyway, today having geography,
i thought it was okay,
Haha,
Maybe I'm wrong i don't know,
I'm not stressed =D
Indeed, after that i never felt any relief.
Wonders..
oh!. i knew why, after school i find my form teacher,
and see my trail result, Okey wadd, got 4a,
i Hope PMR got more!
haha, getting Ace is best!
for me.

Next week have to gone to school to return books.
The worries is, can i really get into science stream?
if not, then means I'm STUPID LAH?
wtf.
kay lah, world is still turning.
no science stream also still have to live..
PMR has ended, and i felt no relief, what a joke.
I'm asking myself why no relief.
It's cuz..
" THE WORLD IS STILL TURNING! "
=_= 2 years will come as fast as a blink of my eye! =D

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